I want to show you who i am, prove that i am ready.
But hearts are broken eventually
mentally im choking,cant you see?
Break myself in two again
so i can build it back and then
return to something beautiful
to a life where no on has to pull.
You deserve to just be oh so happy
to live life so its not so crappy
you deserve the greatest joys
of life and love and all its toys
Where mornings scent is your golden hair
and breakfast happens without a care
to laugh at things so carelessly
to hold you close, just next to me.
I miss the way you put on clothes
the way you cooked apon our stoves
the gentle shake before you sleep
the sunken eyes when you have weeped.
The way you eat with just a finger
the way your smile just always lingered.
The way that you got so damn excited
to be creative and delighted
The way your talent shines so bright
the way youre so creative late at night
the funny things you find in life
the scary way you hold a knife.
The crafty things you used to make
the delicious cakes you used to bake.
The way you look at me and say
"i love you bunny, every day"
but the flames now out and its been trashed
by me, my problems and my past
it all caught up eventually
and broke because i carelessly
didnt think for anyone else
except my ego and my tattered self.
strange things happen from the truth
Like pulling out an impacted tooth
So now i am finally set free
from the poison that encompassed me.
I want to take you to all the places
share our love for watching faces
sip our coffee and our tea
Live life together so effortlessly .
I never thought id be a squatter
living with my lovely otter.
Id give anything for one more night,
to hold each other so damn tight.
I have no one left to blame
to make me feel like i was sane
I want no one else to make me better
not spoken, yelled or in a letter.
the only thing i want from before
is the girl i so adore.
If i could build a time machine
id do things right, id keep things clean.
Then maybe i would sleep a wink
not concerned with what you drink.
Not be scared of where you have been been
and if its cozier when youre with him.
Id call you and just shoot the shit
and charm with you with my pathetic wit.
Id pull you tight and whisper so
make sure that you wouldnt go.
Make sure that you understood
my love for you so that we could,
begin to live so happily,
as one big fucked up family.
I would make sure i never lied
keep things holed up deep inside.
You would know, for once, for sure.
The love we have it will endure.
That i am new and fresh and great
not the old me that i now hate.
That i mean the words i say
fully, each and every day.
I made mistakes that are so huge
that turned me into such a scrooge.
Now my heart has turned to gold
It wont go back to having mold
it will keep on growing because of you
now that i know what i must do.
because you showed me effortlessly
how easy being me can be.
Thank you for everything we shared
the love you gave, the amount you cared.
because i know it wont return
it crashed it broke and then it burned
but here it is so you can see
I love you otter...endlessly.
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